Eduk wrote: ↑September 11th, 2018, 3:45 am
Greta you talk as if your peak experience and nirvana are the same thing? How do you know? Buddhist's might not agree with you?
The problem is that nirvana is incredibly vague. The effects are incredibly vague. The causes are incredibly vague. It's pretty hard for me to say much, as you point out. It's an extraordinary claim and therefore I require extraordinary evidence before it would be reasonable for me consider it 'real' or 'desirable'.
I wouldn't expect people to believe me about anything that can't be checked - a random person online - so that's a conundrum, perhaps an insuperable one.
I don't know about "nirvana" as such. I can say that for sheer joy the second PE left every other time in my life in a dust. If Nirvana is even better than that, how do I sign up without passing through the veil? :)
It is not an extraordinary claim as such because no laws of physics were broken. I didn't astral travel to Paris for croissants and bad coffee and float back again; I just lay in my bed feeling some very weird and wonderful things, including a sense of travel at incredible speed and a feeling of unconditional love and absence of judgement that was warm and wonderful beyond belief.
More importantly, there was a resonance resulting in a period of unusually lucid thought over the next few days that helped me past some attitudinal problems to positive effect in my life. A lucky dopamine wash? Could be. So these are not extraordinary claims.
There was a common link in the PEs in that, just before the peak experiences, I was already feeling unusually happy. In hindsight it's as if I was allowing the experiences to happen more than generating them. That is much easier said than done because there's a lot of mental defences we cling on to without having a clue they were there. My guess is that those "fences" have to open up before such experiences are possible.
Here's an example to reduce the vagueness: What precipitated the second PE was lying in bed imagining that I was on stage at the Enmore Theatre in front of a full house, the lights beaming down on me, the band ready to start the first song. I could not do it, though - I simply could not imagine me being confident and poised enough in such an exciting situation to perform with confidence and, consequently, competence.
At that point I realised that I was so stuck on reality that I could not even let myself
just imagine being confident. That is quite a mental lockdown! Since I was in a good mood I challenged it and thought, 'Why not? Why not let myself just imagine it to myself? It's not delusion, just imagination'. So I started imagining myself on stage, playing with poise and confidence, and almost immediately the experience came on. It was awesome beyond belief and, regrettably, beyond explanation, hence all the annoyingly vague comments.